The week went like this:
Monday: 1500m swim
Wednesday: 2000m swim + 10mile bike
Thursday: 4km run + 5mile bike
Friday: 5km run + 2x750m swim
Saturday: Mega Chore Sunshine Fun Day
Sunday: 13mile bike + 6km run
So not a shabby week, all workouts were accomplished.
I guess the only thing that is weighing on me, is my weight. Granted even with the vegetarian thing on the go, i still make bad decisions with food, but I guess I didnt realize how bad I looked until some of the pics from Vancouver rolled in over the last week.
I am hoping the camera adds a good 140lbs but I dont think that is it. I really am having a hard time doing as much as I am doing in regards to work outs and not seeing any physical benefits. I suppose I should be grateful for the general wellness I feel after a good week, but holy fuck its getting annoying to keep seeing pics and Im like is that me? Is it the angle, the clothes, my posture? how can I look that fat? I dont feel that fat, when I look in the mirror at home I can live with it, so what the hell. For the most part I actually feel pretty good. In the forties now, so I dont expect to be able to do what I could 10 years ago, but Im in the game, and for the most part I am enjoying what I am doing.
I mean if this all comes down to food, Im fucked. I dont see a point in my life where Im going to give up more then meat. I try to manage carbs as much as possible, but when there is no meat its a def go to. So maybe this it, this is as good at it gets? Maybe thats not so bad? My problem is I have tasted a leaner me ( okay that sounds way grosser then I thought it would) when I was hitting 240-250lbs but I felt like crap most of the time, really militantly structuring my food, and not only that but judging others for the things they were eating. A thiner me was a crankier ( i know, how is that even possible), food cop. I guess that is a way to go again, but I really dont want to.
I guess Im stuck. I could change up my workouts again, try my fitnesspal for the 100th time, but I like what Ive been doing, and the goals I have set. I guess I need to find a food path that I can live on, I am a bit all over the map with changing to the vegetarian path, but I really dont want to change that either as my inside belly health has been the best its been in a long time.
Heading to a Health conference in Toronto next week, so hopefully I will get inspired to tackle food again after that. We shall see.
Shoot me your two cents if you have a food strategy that is working for you!
Sean 'BigBoyRunning' Ryan