After getting back from Vancouver I was reminded very quickly that Nova Scotia has not caught up to the fact that it is close to summer. Seriously it rained 6 out of 7 days last week. When you go from listening to your playlist, running and frolicing around the sea wall in Vancouver to the treadmill at the Antigonish Goodlife, there is much to be desired. It was to the point i had to change my playlist because it was making me depressed. Oh on this song I was usually by the inuksuk, and by this song I was by the outdoor pool, because here the views, although at times expansive ( guy on the eliptical in front of me), did not register the same motivational scenery.
The week went like this:
Monday: 1500m swim
Tuesday: off
Wednesday: 2000m swim + 10mile bike
Thursday: 4km run + 5mile bike
Friday: 5km run + 2x750m swim
Saturday: Mega Chore Sunshine Fun Day
Sunday: 13mile bike + 6km run
So not a shabby week, all workouts were accomplished.
I guess the only thing that is weighing on me, is my weight. Granted even with the vegetarian thing on the go, i still make bad decisions with food, but I guess I didnt realize how bad I looked until some of the pics from Vancouver rolled in over the last week.
I am hoping the camera adds a good 140lbs but I dont think that is it. I really am having a hard time doing as much as I am doing in regards to work outs and not seeing any physical benefits. I suppose I should be grateful for the general wellness I feel after a good week, but holy fuck its getting annoying to keep seeing pics and Im like is that me? Is it the angle, the clothes, my posture? how can I look that fat? I dont feel that fat, when I look in the mirror at home I can live with it, so what the hell. For the most part I actually feel pretty good. In the forties now, so I dont expect to be able to do what I could 10 years ago, but Im in the game, and for the most part I am enjoying what I am doing.
I mean if this all comes down to food, Im fucked. I dont see a point in my life where Im going to give up more then meat. I try to manage carbs as much as possible, but when there is no meat its a def go to. So maybe this it, this is as good at it gets? Maybe thats not so bad? My problem is I have tasted a leaner me ( okay that sounds way grosser then I thought it would) when I was hitting 240-250lbs but I felt like crap most of the time, really militantly structuring my food, and not only that but judging others for the things they were eating. A thiner me was a crankier ( i know, how is that even possible), food cop. I guess that is a way to go again, but I really dont want to.
I guess Im stuck. I could change up my workouts again, try my fitnesspal for the 100th time, but I like what Ive been doing, and the goals I have set. I guess I need to find a food path that I can live on, I am a bit all over the map with changing to the vegetarian path, but I really dont want to change that either as my inside belly health has been the best its been in a long time.
Heading to a Health conference in Toronto next week, so hopefully I will get inspired to tackle food again after that. We shall see.
Shoot me your two cents if you have a food strategy that is working for you!
Sean 'BigBoyRunning' Ryan
The week went like this:
Monday: 1500m swim
Tuesday: off
Wednesday: 2000m swim + 10mile bike
Thursday: 4km run + 5mile bike
Friday: 5km run + 2x750m swim
Saturday: Mega Chore Sunshine Fun Day
Sunday: 13mile bike + 6km run
So not a shabby week, all workouts were accomplished.
I guess the only thing that is weighing on me, is my weight. Granted even with the vegetarian thing on the go, i still make bad decisions with food, but I guess I didnt realize how bad I looked until some of the pics from Vancouver rolled in over the last week.
I am hoping the camera adds a good 140lbs but I dont think that is it. I really am having a hard time doing as much as I am doing in regards to work outs and not seeing any physical benefits. I suppose I should be grateful for the general wellness I feel after a good week, but holy fuck its getting annoying to keep seeing pics and Im like is that me? Is it the angle, the clothes, my posture? how can I look that fat? I dont feel that fat, when I look in the mirror at home I can live with it, so what the hell. For the most part I actually feel pretty good. In the forties now, so I dont expect to be able to do what I could 10 years ago, but Im in the game, and for the most part I am enjoying what I am doing.
I mean if this all comes down to food, Im fucked. I dont see a point in my life where Im going to give up more then meat. I try to manage carbs as much as possible, but when there is no meat its a def go to. So maybe this it, this is as good at it gets? Maybe thats not so bad? My problem is I have tasted a leaner me ( okay that sounds way grosser then I thought it would) when I was hitting 240-250lbs but I felt like crap most of the time, really militantly structuring my food, and not only that but judging others for the things they were eating. A thiner me was a crankier ( i know, how is that even possible), food cop. I guess that is a way to go again, but I really dont want to.
I guess Im stuck. I could change up my workouts again, try my fitnesspal for the 100th time, but I like what Ive been doing, and the goals I have set. I guess I need to find a food path that I can live on, I am a bit all over the map with changing to the vegetarian path, but I really dont want to change that either as my inside belly health has been the best its been in a long time.
Heading to a Health conference in Toronto next week, so hopefully I will get inspired to tackle food again after that. We shall see.
Shoot me your two cents if you have a food strategy that is working for you!
Sean 'BigBoyRunning' Ryan
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